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04 April 2005 @ 01:26 am
Hang Up My Spurs  
I swear, the urge to just give up is overwhelming, sometimes.

I used to think I could make a difference in this world. Just one tiny thing, some small, minuscule difference that might move us one step closer to being worthy of getting off this rock. I even knew that it probably wouldn't actually happen in my lifetime; I just hoped I'd see a slight move in a direction that I could say "there, it's gonna happen".

But the more crap I see, the more I watch these humans slide further and further into insanity. The sheer weight of numbers is against me. The ability of the human mind to forget the past and act in the most useless manner possible for the worst reasons scares me, more than it ever has. I'm constantly amazed at how people can demand changes and act on ideals that are so against what they themselves grew up with (and which must have worked just fine, since they are alive and well). It's as if, somewhere around your mid-30's, especially if you've had kids, your mind is sucked out of your ass and replaced with warm tapioca pudding.

Is this it? Is the human race so content with mediocrity? Is actually wanting and expecting more THAT rare anymore? Apparently so.

I just want to give up...I've just about come to the conclusion that it's just not gonna happen.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
entitymel: you!entitymel on April 4th, 2005 08:47 am (UTC)
My life is better for you having touched it. I hope that's worth at least some peace.

Exit Room01flux on April 4th, 2005 09:59 am (UTC)
-cocks head-

What would you give up, if you gave up?
Gingercorachaos on April 4th, 2005 01:16 pm (UTC)
Dude. Never ever give up. When you do, the bastards win.

eclarhne on April 6th, 2005 08:20 pm (UTC)
undoubtably some day, some way, better & better
(to mangle Peter Sellers' crazy Chief Inspector Dreyfuss in Pink Panther Strikes Again)
among other reasons:

Also, read books like John Robert Marlow's Nano for a taste of how interesting it might get -- how can one not wait & see?
God of Thunder and Rock'n'Roll: Dark Babyarchmage on April 6th, 2005 09:55 pm (UTC)
Re: undoubtably some day, some way, better & better
I think you may have the wrong idea...in no way am I suicidal. Just hating the stupid. The 'giving up' reference was in trying to get the bastards to stop being so muddled. And I'm not giving up, anyway.

But the Pink Panther reference is primo.

"Uh, sir...?"
"Huh? Oh, it's a lighter. My wife gave it to me for my birthday."
"Oh...very realistic, sir."

"Don't just stand there...help me find my nose!"
Sribbles McBottomfootachmanage on April 4th, 2005 01:49 pm (UTC)
Hey, just listen to Smoochy.

"You can't change the world, but you can make a dent!"
celticcross13celticcross13 on April 4th, 2005 02:49 pm (UTC)
Is THAT the problem? My brain has been replaced by warm tapioca!??!? Now I REALLY need your help! LOL

Nah, really, I know what you mean. It scares me, too.

Thanks, again, for being there for me the other night. It's amazing how you just knew... Why don't you live closer, damn it!? I, too, can honestly say that my life is better with you in it. Don't you dare hang up those spurs, or I'll take them down and poke you with them. ;)

Michael: dinoakaspeedo on April 4th, 2005 04:11 pm (UTC)
People are mostly herd animals; they like to be led. The larger the group, the smaller the brain power. That doesn't mean you should give up, unless you want to be a shepherd and that isn't working for ya'.
Rowennalapis_lunamoth on April 4th, 2005 05:01 pm (UTC)
I'm a 33 year old middle class housewife mother of two kids under the age of 10 (and no more to come; we're officially sterile). I don't think I have replaced my brains with warm tapioca. Unfortunately, I think 90% of the population HAS undergone such a transfer...or else they were born with pudding for brains/had their brains pudding-ified early on.

I'm bitter and disillusioned too, though...but I'm not going to give up. Every now and then I see the Thinking Populace making some headway in the constant drek the Pudding Populace leaves around.

My dad said to me a few days ago that America has indeed become the Skulls and Bones country they wanted it to be; there is a rising population of ignorant status-quo...uneducated (either self or traditionally taught) blue-collar worker bees that don't do much questioning of anything that might disrupt their rythyms for long. Sad, but true. Which is why I'm not going to sit blithely by, letting the sea of Ritalin Kids and Pasty Pudding People ruin my world or my children's world. And I'd like to think that as a parent, I'm rearing two people that will do good things. Maybe not great things, but good things...and will use their noodles in the process.

But oh, so often, JM and I find ourselves daydreaming about alternate histories and exclaiming that NOW would be a good time for Lucifer's Hammer or Captain Tripps to come along and do us the favour of eradicating the sea of idiots. Because, you know, we're sanctimonious enough to know that OUR family will be untouched and skillful enough to resurrect humanity properly LOL.
Christopher K Clousekeesor on April 4th, 2005 09:51 pm (UTC)
I echo your level of loathing toward our fellow man. there a feeling of hopeless encircling over thoughts of us who truly want change and know not where to turn next. I too have felt it stronger these days than most. it has been at more trouble levels than I wish to discuss here. I dont know what is to come. I'm incline not to care at this point in time. sorry no heart today. it's been bleeding for some time now.
syrinakintarisyrinakintari on April 5th, 2005 05:33 am (UTC)
Don't you dare. Years ago I promised to also be your friend as long as you kept trying. Well now I'm sort of reversing that on you a bit. I'm still your friend so you have to keep trying!

I do understand where your comming from though.
Christopher K Clousekeesor on April 5th, 2005 05:55 am (UTC)
Call you battle! Will it to change!
It's hard to keep moving forward when so many are hellbend on "keeping the status quote" I want a change but finding those who want it too are further and fewer between. I'm doing my part on this end. I continue to do my part on this end. but without allies in this fight it feel like a losing battle. without some break from this onslaught of oppression it begin to take it's toll. I want for change. I will for change. my life be damned I will it to change. one more is with me who else will continue? who else wills the change for a better world? WHO DAMN YOU!
God of Thunder and Rock'n'Rollarchmage on April 5th, 2005 06:37 am (UTC)
Re: Call you battle! Will it to change!
Me. So there.
Christopher K Clousekeesor on April 5th, 2005 06:41 am (UTC)
Re: Call you battle! Will it to change!
DAMN RIGHT! One more wills the change. More will follow. We must if there is to be a future for all of us we must.
15lb_bunny on April 5th, 2005 06:09 am (UTC)
What depressed me is humanity did all of these amazing things - the pyramids, the ancient languages, the art, the politics, the architecture...and then came to a frigging screeching 12-car pile up halt. WHY!?
God of Thunder and Rock'n'Roll: Swordheartarchmage on April 5th, 2005 06:38 am (UTC)
Because we stopped caring about advancement and started caring too much about ourselves. We stopped being interested in the species and started taking ourselves too seriously.
(Anonymous) on October 16th, 2005 10:51 pm (UTC)
there's nothing to oversee. like a chaotic system. for instance: Nothing chances during your liftime. That's because you shouldn't expect to see change, in our system.