December 24th, 2001


Holiday Jeer

Well, Xmas is upon us again, it seems. And I normally hate December, for many reasons. Oh, wait, I hate this one, too.

December is the month that has my birthday in it (which just reminds me I'm getting older), Xmas (which reminds me how much I dislike my family), and the anniversary of Allison's death (long sucks).

This year? Well, car situation, money, creditors, love lost...twice, alone, holiday plans destoyed, computer dead...yep. It sucks.

But there are people who have made the year worth bearing. More about them later.


As stated, it hasn't been all bad. There are people I want to thank for what they have done.

discordian: As usual, you've smacked me occasionally, when i needed it...and gotten me in arguments which distracted me long enough to get me back on track. Always miss you, m'man.
velvetacidgrrl: For all the bullshit, we remained friends. I'm glad for that.
hazeleyedgal_25: For making me smile.
cenobitten: For reminding me of what I am...and what I can be.
caliban and 01flux: For being a pair of great friends, and for being able to put up with me.
My Dad: for not giving up on me.
My Mom: for finally shutting up and listening to me.
My Grandfather: for showing me that I was wrong, and letting me save face by not admitting that he noticed I backtracked.
erotocism: for just being entirely too cool, and reminding me what true beauty means
alicynx: for making me feel useful and good
annathema667: for helping alleviate many a stressful time, without knowing it, through her music
priestofcards: for continuing to be a close friend
red_baron: for not losing touch
insteadofsilent: for understanding, even if she didn't want to...and not hating me for it.
kespernorth: for being a cool friend to have, and for getting me to laugh when I need it
ravenlace: for being my sounding board when I needed it...and for knowing I needed it before I even admitted it
rayce: for being hella cool, and for making me feel good
wolfye: for reminding me what I like most about myself by mirroring it

And, perhaps most of all, my darling nysidra, for capturing my heart, and replacing it with her own...for showing me what I had lost and teaching me what I had forgotten...and for making me happier to face the new day.

I love you all. Happy Days, Happier Nights,and Happiest Lives.

Good Things, For A Change

For those that have kept up, and know what's going on...I finally got a message from nysidra. Not bothering with details, as it was very short...but I feel much better.

And, as I was talking with kespernorth about it earlier, he said somethign which made me laugh (see, he's good at that!) and which summed up everything perfectly: "The heart is the pesky, goofy toddler of the human soul."
  • Current Music
    Rappin' Duke (who remembers this?)

Yes, That's Right...More Tests

First off...somethig which I've told people for years anyway...why don't they believe me?

I am 86% evil.

Wow! I'm almost pure evil! Sin is my way of life. If there is a hell I have packed my bags for the trip.

Are you evil? find out at

Seriously, though...I've always been a videogame freak. Especially in the 80's, the Golden Halcyon Days of the i had to take this one...and it's scary accurate...

What Video Game Character Are You? I am a Defender-ship.I am a Defender-ship.

I am fiercely protective of my friends and loved ones, and unforgiving of any who would hurt them. Speed and foresight are my strengths, at the cost of a little clumsiness. I'm most comfortable with a few friends, but sometimes particularly enjoy spending time in larger groups. What Video Game Character Are You?
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    Lords Of Acid - Pussy