November 21st, 2002



Oh, God of Earth and Altar, bow down and hear our cry,
Our earthly rulers falter, our people drift and die,
The walls of gold entomb us, the swords of scorn divide,
Take not thy thunder from us, take away our pride...

Just a babe in a black abyss, no reason for a place like this,
Thew walls are cold and souls cry out in pain,
An easy way for the blind to go, a clever path for the fools who know,
The secret of the hanged man, the smile on his lips...

The lights of the blind, you'll see,
The venom tears my spine,
The eyes of the Nile are opening, you'll see...

She came to me with a serpent's kiss as the Eye of the Sun rose on her lips,
Moonlight catches silver tears I cry,
So we lay in a black embrace, and the Seed is sown in a holy place
And I watched, and I waited for the dawn.

The lights of the blind, you'll see,
The venom tears my spine,
The eyes of the Nile are opening, you'll see...

Bind all of us together, ablaze with hope and free,
No storm or heavy weather will rock the boat, you'll see,
The time has come to close your eyes and still the wind and rain,
For the one who will be King is the Watcher in the Ring,
It is You, it is you...


So, after this morning's little freak-on, I decided to go with advice that was mirrored by wolfye, that of 'do something to get your mind straight'. I had those icons to work on, didn't I? Brilliant!

After 2 hours of fucking around, I was banging my head on the desk in frustrated anger (it's an artist thing). Bad enough to the point of Di telling me to calm down (turnabout, eh?). OK, smoke and caffeine and dive back in, and Bob's your uncle. So, filled with newfound calm and happiness, I post them to the web server, and feeling good, relax.

The web server goes down. *sigh*

I'm glad that I'm calmer, and that I tend to try and find the funny angle on helps me find all this hilarious. Which is good, because it's getting ri-goddamn-diculous.
  • Current Music
    ZZ Top - Pearl Necklace
Burn The World


OK, so it looks like I'll be spending Xmas with my Dad. He's REALLY excited about it, and that helps make it tolerable to me. Not that I don't wanna see him, but I know I'll be missing Di (and vice versa!). Plus, I'll be bored stupid, being away from my music, and my games, and my friends, and my computer...I'll have 'Net access, but it won't be the same...I'll miss you, Banshee...

The really odd part for me is that I'll be meeting my extended step-family...ALL of them. Other than my step-mom, I dunno them at all, other than the fact that they are primarily married with kids of their own, conservative, and very Catholic. And here, into their midst, on the celebration of the birth of their Lord and Saviour, will be me, in all my long-haired, foul-mouthed, tattooed, pagan glory. I discussed this, earlier, with my favorite German, Silke (Happy Birthday to little Jan!):

SatanasExMachina: it'll be interesting...I'll be meeting my extended step-family...for the first time
catloveress: *chuckles* that is interesting indeed
SatanasExMachina: I know my step-mom, but past that...nothing
SatanasExMachina: This should be an interesting visit indeed.
catloveress: *chuckles* you'll scare the hell out of them!
SatanasExMachina: *eg* I plan to.

Wish me's gonna be a long holiday.
Burn The World

More Icons

What can I say, I'm on a roll. Besides, nighthawk asked me to see what I came up with for him. Well, I couldn't find the images I needed for the inital idea in my head, but I did come up with these:


Wild Connections

vipermat15 popped up on me today, which was cool. I had done a 'Halloween' mix CD for him, and he just wanted to thank me, and see if I'd be willing to do another. Hmmm...mix albums. Man, I used to do these for people constantly...kinda cool to do it again.

I should just start offering them out for like $2 a piece. That would cover the shipping, and some blanks.
  • Current Music
    The Men - The Church Of Logic, Sin, And Love