God of Thunder and Rock'n'Roll (archmage) wrote,
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Love/Hate Relationships

Trainees at work. They can be such a pain in the ass. Don't get me wrong, it's not their fault, everyone has to learn sometimes, but dammit, I have to do every little detail when they are observing, and I cannot blow off little stuff that I normally do, because I have to make sure they learn correct procedures. On the other hand, once they are in their second week of training, they take the calls, so they are great to have around, because I can just lean back in my chair and offer advice occasionally. So I guess it's just that growth period. And it does keep me honest!

Heidi. I can't say that I have a love/hate relationship with her, I think we all know how I feel. I love hate that things are the way they are. Love it because of the way she makes ME feel, and the way I feel about her and she about me. Hate it because it has to (at least temporarily) end. Love it because I prolly need that. Hate it because I want it and there is no way to know if it will last long enough for her to return. I wonder sometimes if I am just fooling myself...but I look in her eyes as she is staring into mine, and I can't help but be optimistic about it. We'll see.

We're talking about stopping off and seeing my Dad on the trip to VA (he's in Wisconsin). If I do this, it's going to be an emotional trip all around. I haven't seen Dad in, goddess, 4 years? More? Not sure anymore, so that'll be a riot, and then have to be with Heidi for those days of driving only to have to give her up again...and meeting her PARENTS f'goddess' sake! Man, part of me wants to bail so hard, and the other part can't believe I'd do it anyway.

Ah well, lunch is over, back to work...

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