pissed offAlice's mail:
Your Friend ship is and has always meant alot to me but after you brought some one into the
place where i was told by a friend of a long time that i could stay and i didnt think that i
would feel in danger of being around drugs. Sorry i dont like them. no i dont know Eric but i do
know how people can get on drugs so no i really dont feel safe. i would love to give you that
money but i barely have the money to feed myself the interview that i have tonight will
hopefully help that. And since I was the one who brought all of your stuff from New jersy maybe
i thought you would try to be a little more understanding when it came to money. i would also
like to think that you would understand that you've not been the best of frinds to me lately
either . Cause a friend would try to understand the money thing. i will try to get it to you as
fast a i possible can. But no as much as i would like to talk this out i'll most likley not be
able to come out there it is a long drive for me and i really only have gas to make it the the
apt. and home for the week. and i dont think it's very frendly like to make demands like that or
while i'm thinking about it for EVERYONE to know MY BUSINESS as far as the money thing goes so
if you would like top set up a time to meet and talk about this let me know.
And my response:
> feel in danger of being around drugs.
Not that you ever gave it a chance. There hasn't been anything in the house, not once, since then. But you wouldn't know anything about that. You made assumptions, you had to have things ONE WAY, and when it didn't go that way, you chose to act like a petulant child. You made no concessions, you just 'took your toys and went home'.
> i barely have the money to feed myself
> since I was the one who brought all of your stuff i thought you would try to be a little more understanding
> i dont think it's very frendly like to make demands like that
LOL..oh, but it's friendly to block me so that I have no way to contact you? And it's friendly to never talk to me, any way, ever? And how friendly is it to make arrangements and then break them, with no explanation, not even an attempt to contact me and make new ones? No, Alice, I have actually been MORE than understanding with you, as I am with everyone. As far as being understanding since you brought my stuff, I never charged a single cent, nor asked for compensation, during all the time that you were here, didn't have a job, weren't paying me anything. The money that we arranged to have you pay me was during the time that you were PERFECTLY capable of paying rent, but we had arranged that you saved the money to move, and I paid the bills...but you chose to use that money to move only yourself out. So that was pure rent. Nothing more. And I have also been understanding in not hounding you about the fact that you passed a payday and did not pay me or contact me, then passed another payday, same thing. Even MY understanding has limits, and when a 'friend' bails on me, breaks an arrangement, is perfectly aware of it, and isn't adult enough to step up and talk to me about it, those limits are crossed.
> for EVERYONE to know MY BUSINESS as far as the money thing
You are quite aware that I keep a journal, and that it is strictly my own thoughts, feelings, etc. I have nothing to hide from my FRIENDS. Which begs the question, why would you go out of your way to block me from being able to contact you, unless you were hiding, and wanted no contact. My FRIENDS are a part of my life, and they will continue to be. This means they know what is going on, and care. The 'money thing' is not 'your business' strictly, it is also mine. And I will gladly let anyone into my business that I so choose.
Your whole excuse for moving out the way you did, and hence the impetus for this final leg of this sad journey, has been the drug thing with Eric. But this started long before then, when you started to pull away from those that considered you their friend. I hope it was worth it.
The money wasn't important to me, my friend was. Now neither one is. It's not worth the time, effort, or energy. Keep the money. I don't want it.
Don't trouble yourself any further.
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So there you have it. Another perosn walks all over me...but this time I'm not taking it.
Shit.