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Not much to say today...I dunno. Kinda slow happs...on the other hand, last night I got the dubious honour of being able to say that I'm one of the few non-professional people that has scrubbed and clipped a cat's ass. Don't ask, long story, but everyone involved is much happier.
Have you ever found yourself strangely obsessed with someone? I don't mean the heavy infatuation-type of obsession, where they are all you think about and you go out of your way to stalk them (in whatever sense you choose to do it)...I mean just a weird, mellow, almost unconscious obsession with someone that makes you stop and cock an eyebrow at yourself every time you come across their picture or hear their name. You aren't unhappy where you are, and you're not wondering 'what if' or anything like that...and yet, simultaneously, the thought has occured to you before, and will again. You don't tell the person, because they don't think the same, and even if they did, you aren't changing anything, and wouldn't. You damn sure don't say anything to your significant other, because there's no way to explain it without making them twitchy, and besides, there isn't anything to tell: you aren't doing anything even VAGUELY bad, and you wouldn't, regardless. So, you start to feel like you should feel guilty, even though you've done nothing, because you feel someone else would be hurt by the knowledge...and when you get over feeling like you should feel guilty, then you actually DO feel guilty...and now you feel like an idiot for the whole thing, because THERE'S NOTHING THERE TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT.

Maybe you just flirt. Or maybe you just don't care. Or maybe you transfer those feelings into some hobby. Or maybe you go out of your way to distance yourself from your obsession. Or maybe, just maybe, you collect pictures, and just leave them around, and occasionally glance at them and smile, because they make you happy, for no describable reason.
Almost finished with "Cryptonomicon"...I'm happy to say that the plot finally made me excited. It's weird, but up until around page 800 or so, I was reading, and I was interested, but I wasn't excited...I wasn't hurrying to discover the plot. NOW I'm looking forward to seeing where it goes. Recent old-book purchases have garnered me the missing books from Feist's 'Riftwar' saga, so, now that I have the whole damn thing again, I will start rereading it after I'm done. I suppose I'll start catching up on the books he's written on this series that I never read once I get up to that point.
Dammit, I miss gaming already. Not getting to game was bad enough, but finally getting to start again, and then losing it AGAIN just SUCKS.
I really need to get back to doing the LJ Tarot Cards.

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