11 December 2003 @ 03:07 pm
Last week, a company that I did some freelance work for in the past contacted me. They sent me a copy of a proposal that someone had given them for web design contracting, and basically said to look it over, and make a counter-proposal. I'm not sure how ethical that was, but it was pretty cool, n'est-pas?

Still, I looked over it, and at first, couldn't make heads or tails of it. Later on, I read it again, closer, and could tell that it wasn't as monstrous as I first thought. but whoever wrote that proposal is a professional, and offered many things that I could not. Now, I could easily write a proposal of my own, and just leave out what I can't do, and go from there...after all, those things may not be needed, right? Or, they could take THAT proposal back to the original guy, saying 'we have this, and we like it, care to change yours?'...or whatever.

Now, the more I thought about this, the less I liked it. I do know HTML (hell, was Brainbench certified in it, a couple years ago), and with that knowledge, a little reference materials, and my own graphic skills, I can build a decent website. You wouldn't know it from looking at my site, but that's just due to laziness. So, yes, I may have the basic skills to perform the job...but I'm also not fooling myself here: I'm no web designer. Even if I DID put together a site for someone, it wouldn't be very impressive. So, the question now becomes, do I feel comfortable enough in my meagre abilities to contract myself out to do it professionally.

The answer was a clear and resounding 'NO'. Which is what I told the company today (in softer terms). Now, I know what I feel, and I know what I can and cannot do, and I know that getting myself in over my head professionally would make me snap. So why do I feel so rotten about it?
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Bob Seger - The Fire Down Below (Live)
Tobey Cooketherpunk on December 11th, 2003 03:11 pm (UTC)
I don't think you should feel rotten.

Look at it this way, man - it's a measure of comfort to know your capabilities, and to know when you're taking on too much.

I say if you don't feel comfortable with where your skills are, work on improving them till you get to the level that would allow you to take on those bigger jobs like the one you were told about.

The fact they even came to you says they had confidence in your skills, so I wouldn't exactly go beating yourself up about it.
God of Thunder and Rock'n'Rollarchmage on December 11th, 2003 03:57 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I know...but it wasn't that, really. I know I made the right decision for me, I guess it was just that I WANTED to do it. But I'd rather want to and not, and not have to back out later, than to say OK and then realize I can't.
Woapalanne the Sciomancerwoap on December 11th, 2003 03:17 pm (UTC)
Because you wanted to do it. You wanted the challenge, you wanted the money, and you wanted to help them out. :) But don't worry, if you can't do it, you can't, end of story. No need to regret the impossible.
God of Thunder and Rock'n'Rollarchmage on December 11th, 2003 03:57 pm (UTC)
Yeah, exactly.
The Cynic: Disturbeddiscordian on December 11th, 2003 07:59 pm (UTC)
So why do I feel so rotten about it?

Because you know you would have had the best boss out there? ;)
God of Thunder and Rock'n'Rollarchmage on December 11th, 2003 09:39 pm (UTC)
Well, that woiuld have helped, yeah.